leaving it all behind

Who needs a fresh start?

In life there is always a time for a fresh start. We all need forgivness. We have all done wrong. Sometimes starting new can be the hardest thing because it means recognizing you were wrong, making it right, asking for forgivness, and the hardest part: leaving it behind.

Why do I struggle with this so much? Knowing that this is best for my life, and yet it seems impossible for me to do. Not only do I leave behind my wrong doing and pain but I have to leave behind all the amazing memories that constantly reminisce in my mind. The ones that once brought me so much fulfillment, joy, love, and happiness. Why do these memories have to fade away in order to leave behind the darkness of my mistakes and the pain of reality? I do not know.

this is my struggle: leaving it all behind.