always wished, now I accept

I always wished that I was artistic.

That with the stroke of a paintbrush I could paint the images from my imagination on paper

That the world could see and understand the dreams that I dream.

I always wished that I could sketch a friend, a memory, that using a simple piece of lead from a tree I could create a picture of beauty.

I also wished that I had the creativity to use exquisite words and make beautiful poems, expressions of my heart, but I'm just not one of those naturally talented writers.

I can't seem to find the right words to explain or lay out the ideas in my head that long for freedom.

But all this being said, Im not going to stop creating, writing, and pursuing something like having a blog just because I'm not as talented as I'd like to be.

Its okay with me if my words don't always go together, or if the pictures I use don't express what i wish them too.

At least I'm trying to show the world that there's something deeper in me.

Perhaps...maybe this is why playing the piano is ultimately my favorite thing to do.

It expresses that which cannot even be put into words, or painted on a canvas.

It carries a deeper meaning to me, something that takes you to a different level of intimacy when listening or creating.

It's a completely new world and escape for me.

I know that the keys I play and the melodies I create have much more meaning to them than anyone could understand.

Every song I write, every note I play, or key signature I choose is for a reason, a purpose. To express that inside of me that nothing else could express.

Sometimes it's a blessing to acknowledge the gifts and abilities that maybe aren't your strongest because it allows you to see where the Lord has blessed you.

And indeed, each of us are uniquely created by God, with a unique personality, appearance, and set of gifts and abilities to use for his glory.

How I praise him, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.