you're my one and only

you've stolen my heart

and although I may not show it

i'm scared to death

02/14/2011

if theres one thing I've learned thus far in the year it's that
life isn't always as it seems and things often end up in chaos, the extreme
I know that things are hard and not many things are an ease
but in the end i realize that love is all i need
so take me, break me, hold me close
mold me, shape me, make me the most
breathe over me, lead me, i'll follow until i die
one day this life will pass and all that matters
is love and the holy dove.

i wish i knew where to begin to express these thoughts and emotions
but the frustrating thing is I don't know how

i could tell you that i feel alone
that i'm going through a season of stillness and quietness while seeking the Lord

i could tell you that i'm afraid
that i'm going to end up wishing, waiting, and falling for you

i could tell you that i'm hurt
that because of my past, i'm truly afraid to love

i could tell you that i'll be honest
and that i will be, but it may still end me up in the same place i began

i could tell you that I miss you
but those words wouldn't mean anything to you right now

i could tell you that i care about you
but in reality do i even know who you are?

i would like to believe that
"to be known is to be loved, and to be loved is to be known"

i could tell you i wish for this
but in truth, i don't deserve these things

i could tell you that i'll give this up
but somehow I can't change what my heart feels

So instead of continually trying to express something that I can't find words for
I'll just be quiet, i'll keep my mouth closed, i'll love you with my actions to the best of my broken ability
I'll wait, wish, hope, pray, love, even if I end up alone and broken
I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

proverbs 13:3 " he who guards his mouth protects his life, he who opens his lips comes to ruin"

i need to be patient....

Love is patient, Love is kind

love from new eyes

my honesty:

although love is carried and felt through deep emotion, it is so much more

love is an action, love is a choice.

with that being said...

i'm making a choice to love you. i'm making a choice to encourage you. to spur you on in your walk with the Lord. no matter what happens with us, i'll love you through my actions and my prayers. although my heart feels many things for you, i recognize that this life is a journey. i was made for love, and i was made to love my King Jesus above all else. That being said I am called to love those around me as Christ loves me. You are special to me, this relationship was ordained by God and so I will trust his timing and provision. You are amazing if I haven't already told you. I'm excited to have you in my life and walk in the Spirit with you and love you with my actions and maybe one day with my heart, but only God knows that, and his will and plan shall prevail. like you said, let's be building blocks not stumbling blocks for each other. if we keep things that way than everything will be okay. when i say i love you right now, it's not a worldly love, it's a spiritual love and care. i hope you understand that.

we started our friendship like this from the very start and i just came across this verse today and it has so many meanings to me..

Proverbs 24:26 An honest answer, is like a kiss on the lips

yours truly,

maryse elizabeth cecilia

Stay

You did not dare say a single word
I did not dare ask for something more
I’ve kept my questions secret deep inside
But I wish I could have let you know about
A time when I would have said

Wait, and please stay
Did you mean to push me away?
Please wait and just stay
Did you want it to be this way?

Would you want to know what I've been through?
Would you want to know I have missed you too
And you've been and you will be a part of me
That I can't find
And you've been forgiven for your silence
All this time when I would have said

Wait, and please stay
Did you mean to push me away?
Please wait and just say
Is there a way that could replace
The times you never said
How've you been?
Do you need anything?
Want you to know I'm here?
Want you to feel me near?

Yeah...and I hope
I hope that you will find your way
Yeah...and I hope
I hope there will be better days

Please wait, and just stay
Please stay
Did you mean to push me away?
Please wait, and just stay
Wait, just stay
Did you want it to be this way?
Wait, please say
Yeah, and I hope
I hope that you will find your way
Please wait, and just stay
Wait, and I hope
I hope there will be better days

Hey hey...

Wait
Please stay
Just stay
Please wait

2011

New Years Resolution

to love Jesus Christ and to make him known to others

truly that's all that matters when I die

my life is but a breath, and i don't know when my day of salvation will come.

i trust in his love and will.

God loves you. Yes you reading this right now, he loves you so much that when you mess up and make mistakes he's already paid the price and he's already forgiven you. He loves you so much that he sent his only Son, Jesus Christ to come and live on earth only to die a gruesome death so that you could be forgiven and set FREE. Today can be the day you accept his love and sacrifice. It's been done for you, his blood was shed out of pure love. Call on the name of the Lord and you shall be saved.