i wish i knew where to begin to express these thoughts and emotions
but the frustrating thing is I don't know how

i could tell you that i feel alone
that i'm going through a season of stillness and quietness while seeking the Lord

i could tell you that i'm afraid
that i'm going to end up wishing, waiting, and falling for you

i could tell you that i'm hurt
that because of my past, i'm truly afraid to love

i could tell you that i'll be honest
and that i will be, but it may still end me up in the same place i began

i could tell you that I miss you
but those words wouldn't mean anything to you right now

i could tell you that i care about you
but in reality do i even know who you are?

i would like to believe that
"to be known is to be loved, and to be loved is to be known"

i could tell you i wish for this
but in truth, i don't deserve these things

i could tell you that i'll give this up
but somehow I can't change what my heart feels

So instead of continually trying to express something that I can't find words for
I'll just be quiet, i'll keep my mouth closed, i'll love you with my actions to the best of my broken ability
I'll wait, wish, hope, pray, love, even if I end up alone and broken
I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

proverbs 13:3 " he who guards his mouth protects his life, he who opens his lips comes to ruin"

i need to be patient....

Love is patient, Love is kind

love from new eyes

my honesty:

although love is carried and felt through deep emotion, it is so much more

love is an action, love is a choice.

with that being said...

i'm making a choice to love you. i'm making a choice to encourage you. to spur you on in your walk with the Lord. no matter what happens with us, i'll love you through my actions and my prayers. although my heart feels many things for you, i recognize that this life is a journey. i was made for love, and i was made to love my King Jesus above all else. That being said I am called to love those around me as Christ loves me. You are special to me, this relationship was ordained by God and so I will trust his timing and provision. You are amazing if I haven't already told you. I'm excited to have you in my life and walk in the Spirit with you and love you with my actions and maybe one day with my heart, but only God knows that, and his will and plan shall prevail. like you said, let's be building blocks not stumbling blocks for each other. if we keep things that way than everything will be okay. when i say i love you right now, it's not a worldly love, it's a spiritual love and care. i hope you understand that.

we started our friendship like this from the very start and i just came across this verse today and it has so many meanings to me..

Proverbs 24:26 An honest answer, is like a kiss on the lips

yours truly,

maryse elizabeth cecilia

Stay

You did not dare say a single word
I did not dare ask for something more
I’ve kept my questions secret deep inside
But I wish I could have let you know about
A time when I would have said

Wait, and please stay
Did you mean to push me away?
Please wait and just stay
Did you want it to be this way?

Would you want to know what I've been through?
Would you want to know I have missed you too
And you've been and you will be a part of me
That I can't find
And you've been forgiven for your silence
All this time when I would have said

Wait, and please stay
Did you mean to push me away?
Please wait and just say
Is there a way that could replace
The times you never said
How've you been?
Do you need anything?
Want you to know I'm here?
Want you to feel me near?

Yeah...and I hope
I hope that you will find your way
Yeah...and I hope
I hope there will be better days

Please wait, and just stay
Please stay
Did you mean to push me away?
Please wait, and just stay
Wait, just stay
Did you want it to be this way?
Wait, please say
Yeah, and I hope
I hope that you will find your way
Please wait, and just stay
Wait, and I hope
I hope there will be better days

Hey hey...

Wait
Please stay
Just stay
Please wait

2011

New Years Resolution

to love Jesus Christ and to make him known to others

truly that's all that matters when I die

my life is but a breath, and i don't know when my day of salvation will come.

i trust in his love and will.

God loves you. Yes you reading this right now, he loves you so much that when you mess up and make mistakes he's already paid the price and he's already forgiven you. He loves you so much that he sent his only Son, Jesus Christ to come and live on earth only to die a gruesome death so that you could be forgiven and set FREE. Today can be the day you accept his love and sacrifice. It's been done for you, his blood was shed out of pure love. Call on the name of the Lord and you shall be saved.

truth in me

"In the search for me, I discovered truth. In the search for truth, I discovered love. In the search for love, I discovered God. And in God, I have found everything." - unknown author

so far apart

If I could wrap my head around,
why you won't hear me now,
you tend to break my heart.

Keep my eyes close long enough,
or maybe just wake up without a soul so fall apart

Everytime I pick you up, you find a way to fall
don't you know a conversation doesnt mean ignore me.

Like a father living as a ghost,
and like a lover leaving when you need the most
And like a son you love, but can't quite reach anymore.

If I could figure out what you want from me,
I'm always open, and you can come on in.
Give you room to breath in hope, that part of you that's so cold, we melted, we can be friends again.

Everytime I feel I'm getting closer, things get worse,
But I know how the story goes because you're not the first.

Like a father living as a ghost,
and like a lover leaving when you need the most
And like a son you love, but can't quite reach anymore.

And even though you're thinking you don't need me and you're missing out on everything you should know.
Like a daughter, I pray.
Like a lover, I wait.
and Like a mother I'll be here when you fall.

stars

"what do you see when you look at the stars?" he asked. she said "i see three things: something more, beauty, and God" he looked into her eyes and responded softly "that's what I see in you".

Dear friend, you may never read this or never know how thankful i am for you. but the Lord has blessed me because I know you. I was blind at first to the fact that God would show his love through you, or any person for that matter. But now I see, that through your eyes and through your heart I am that much closer and in love with my heavenly father. Thank you. Blessings over you and your amazing heart. With Love, Maryse