02/14/2011

if theres one thing I've learned thus far in the year it's that
life isn't always as it seems and things often end up in chaos, the extreme
I know that things are hard and not many things are an ease
but in the end i realize that love is all i need
so take me, break me, hold me close
mold me, shape me, make me the most
breathe over me, lead me, i'll follow until i die
one day this life will pass and all that matters
is love and the holy dove.

i wish i knew where to begin to express these thoughts and emotions
but the frustrating thing is I don't know how

i could tell you that i feel alone
that i'm going through a season of stillness and quietness while seeking the Lord

i could tell you that i'm afraid
that i'm going to end up wishing, waiting, and falling for you

i could tell you that i'm hurt
that because of my past, i'm truly afraid to love

i could tell you that i'll be honest
and that i will be, but it may still end me up in the same place i began

i could tell you that I miss you
but those words wouldn't mean anything to you right now

i could tell you that i care about you
but in reality do i even know who you are?

i would like to believe that
"to be known is to be loved, and to be loved is to be known"

i could tell you i wish for this
but in truth, i don't deserve these things

i could tell you that i'll give this up
but somehow I can't change what my heart feels

So instead of continually trying to express something that I can't find words for
I'll just be quiet, i'll keep my mouth closed, i'll love you with my actions to the best of my broken ability
I'll wait, wish, hope, pray, love, even if I end up alone and broken
I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

proverbs 13:3 " he who guards his mouth protects his life, he who opens his lips comes to ruin"

i need to be patient....

Love is patient, Love is kind